28 May 2013

Lunchtime Conversations with Madeline...

Me: "Maddy, do you like your chicken, carrots, and green beans?"
Maddy: "Yeah."
Me: "Did Nana come to visit you last night?"
Maddy: (cheeks packed with food) "MmmmHmmm."
Me: "She did! What did you talk about?"
Maddy: "Poop."
Me: "Poop?! No shit. Is that all you talked about?"
Maddy: "Bubby."
Me: "You talked about Bubby?"

(Bubby would be her favorite blanket that she sleeps with. She never called it that until her Nana starting showing up in the middle of the night. Yes - we have a ghost. That's another post for another time.)

Maddy: "Yeah, Bubby."
Me: "Do you love your Bubby?"
Maddy: "Yeah."
Me: "Do you love daddy?"
Maddy: (Laughing) "Yeah!"
Me: "Do you love mommy?"
Maddy: "Yeah."
Me: "Do you love Henry the dog?"
Maddy: (Brief silence while staring down the dog) "Ewww! You stink Henry! No way!"
Laughs shared all the way around.

That's right, baby. You keep saying "Ew, no way!" to smelly males. Lesson learned for the day.

Love to all,
Courtney & Maddy


18 May 2013

I Have Some Confessions to Make...

I quit my job about a month ago. Yep, I straight up quit and I've never felt better about a decision in my life. At the end of the day, the job made me miserable; frustrated and angry every day, a boss who was a horrible manager let alone person, and a schedule that wasn't very conducive to family life. I was always in fear for my job (Because of said horrible, bitchy manager) if I had to stay home with Maddy and the work was less than challenging and fulfilling. So - 

I quit. Let's be honest - if a person is going to have to work, life is way too short to be stuck working a job that makes you miserable and in the end, it was the right choice for me.  So what am I doing now with all this free time on my hands you ask? Welllll...

Confession #2: I'm currently a stay at home mom.

Yep, you read that right - a SAHM. 

Confession #4: While I have absolutely NO CLUE as to what I'm doing as a SAHM and while it is completely daunting to me at this point, I have to admit that secretly, I'm enjoying it. This season of my life isn't intended to be permanent. Once we move to Fort Collins and get settled from the move, I will eventually be going back to work but for now, I'm embracing and adjusting to this new role. But, it hasn't been without its frustrations...

I've had a job since I was 15. I've worked every year of my life since so when you go from working 9 - 5 for some 20+ years to staying at home with your child, it is an odd transition and I'm learning that it takes time to adjust. I'll be the first to admit that I have absolutely no freaking clue as to what I'm doing. Going from a life of knowing where I had to be at every second of the day and following someone else's schedule to having no schedule, no one to answer to, and no commitments has been difficult. Like seriously - WTF do I do with myself and Maddy ALL. DAY. LONG???

I've been scouring Google to get some answers to this question. I've googled everything from "Stay at home mom schedules" to "how to keep a toddler entertained" and honestly, it has been totally useless because every mother is doing it differently. And why wouldn't they? Every family and every child is different so it only stands to reason that there is no clear and concise answer to this question of "how do I fill my days?" But what I have learned is this - there is no right or wrong answer. Apparently, that's the beauty of being a SAHM mom - to have the flexibility to do with your days as you see fit. More importantly, I'm learning that this is a special time I'll have with Chickie that I may or may not ever have again and for that reason alone, I cherish it.

At this point, I can't say that I'll ever be comfortable with being a full-time SAHM - I just don't think that's the kind of woman I am... it's not me and I wouldn't be staying true to me if I were to say, or do, otherwise. I enjoy work. I enjoy professional challenges and rewards. I enjoy knowing I can have the best of both worlds and NOT feel guilty for it. More so, I enjoy being an example to my daughter in a world that is hard for women that she can see me having a career and a family and that it's OK, so I can't say that I'll always be a SAHM. But what I do feel comfortable saying is that for now, I'm embracing this new challenge and time in my life and enjoying it for what it's worth. It's not easy but Maddy and I are figuring it out together along the way and life is good - even on the challenging days. I feel so incredibly blessed to have such an amazing daughter to share my life with and look forward to this time we will spend together. 

Especially during nap time. ;-)

If you're a SAHM I'd really love to hear from you on how you fill your days and schedule your time. Please comment and let me know! Any and all input, advice and suggestions are welcome.

Until next time - XOXO
Courtney