02 February 2015

Why I'm a Working Mom Not Trying to Have it All


I am an average, run of the mill working mom.

I am not trying to "have it all," at least by society’s expectations. I am not trying to relentlessly climb the corporate ladder or shatter the glass ceiling. I am not trying to "Lean In" to everything. {I do not like Sheryl Sandburg but that is another post for another time.} I am not trying to win all the awards and know everyone in my town and have all the contacts.

I've been there and done that. I've worked the 60+ hours a week. I've worked from home in the evenings and into the wee hours of the morning. I've been the first to arrive to the office and the last to leave and I've sacrificed so much more along the way, that I cringe to look back and think of it now. And do you know where all that hard work got me?

Nowhere.

Yep, that's right. Nowhere. I'm not a Vice President, a CEO or an Executive Director. I'm not jet-setting or power-lunching. And that's OK with me - it's a conscience choice I've made along the way as a working gal. While I've done some pretty cool things during my career and won a few awards here and there, when I look back - and think forward - with regards to my career, I have to wonder if all those 60+ hours a week were worth the time I lost with family, my child, friends and loved ones. Was it worth the holidays and family I neglected to be with because I succumbed to the pressure of feeling like I had to be in the office for fear of not being viewed as the "team player?" Was it worth cancelling dinner plans with good friends because I felt the need to stay at the office to just get one more project done instead? More so, was it worth me straining myself to get to an interview - only 4 days after having a C-Section - for a position that I thought would take me to the next level because the woman in HR told me that it was pretty much then or never? Yes, you read that right. I had just had major abdominal surgery, given birth and was told it was now or never...and I went...all because I felt the pressure to "have it all." Was it worth all of these things and more that I sacrificed just so I could keep someone else's bottom line plush and running?

No, I don't think so.

Now that I'm a mom, it's even more important to me to keep a healthy perspective on the work|life balance. Yes, it is my choice to work and I enjoy being a working mom. I feel that fostering my own interests and wants helps to make me a better mom and yes, I also have to work. I have bills to pay and a family to provide for BUT the more important question for me these days is - at what price and what cost? I am no longer willing to sacrifice my family and personal time just to keep others fat, rich and happy.

So what am I willing to do?

Simply put, I want to put in an honest day's work for an honest day's pay. I simply want to do my 9 - 5, give my all while I'm on the clock and go home to my family at the end of the day while leaving it all behind because when it's all said and done, it's just a job. I'm not looking to blaze trails or be a trend-setter. At this point in my life, I'm simply trying to find a way to take care of my family while doing something I enjoy and getting paid to do so at the same time. A job is how I earn a living but it's not my life. I guess some would call me lazy. Others, I'm sure, will say that I have no ambition and give working moms a bad name. I really don't care. What do I choose to call myself?

Wise.

Because you see, I think as working moms we've all been sold a bill of goods that just stinks and I'm not willing to buy it anymore. We've been told time and time and time again that "You can have it all! You can do it all! Just Lean In a little more!" and I'm sorry ladies, but as much as we'd like to think this is true, it just isn't. No matter how amazing and capable you are, you cannot possibly do it all. You cannot be all things to all people - one facet of your life will always suffer.

I learned this lesson the hard way after my daughter was born and I returned to the workplace. I found myself hunched over my laptop at home in-between trying to cook dinner and feed a baby stressing over projects and feeling as if I had to return work emails I received at 10 p.m. because I had an iPhone that the company paid for - in their eyes, there was no excuse for emails to not be read and replied to when received "You have an iPhone. You always have access. Get it done!" was the mentality. And in return, what did I get? Well, I'm pretty sure I missed out on some of my daughter's first steps and I'm also pretty certain that there were times when she wanted my attention but I was too busy trying to "have it all" that she was either totally ignored or only getting half of me... you know... the "Okay sweetie, hold on. Let me finish this email first" mom.

You see, as working moms, we can't have it all. A line has to be drawn in the sand at some point. There has to be a balance to it all. I refuse to believe anymore that in order for me to "have it all" it means that I have to be a constant ball of nerves stressing over what has to be more of the priority for me today - my daughter or my job?


So no, I don't want to "have it all." I don't want to just "Lean In" a little more. I'm perfectly fine where I am, thank you very much. Work has me from 9 - 5 but my family - my daughter - have my life. In my eyes, that is having it all. 



Courtney @ Shiraz In My Sippy Cup
Courtney @ Shiraz In My Sippy Cup

Courtney is a published author, mom, taco enthusiast, and a Star Wars and Tennessee Volunteers fanatic. She's never met a piece of sushi she didn’t like and enjoys an amazing glass of wine and a great cut of meat. You can read more of her wine-induced, sleep-deprived adventures on The Huffington Post and Scary Mommy.

19 comments:

  1. I think your outlook is wonderful! If I worked, I would have the exact same outlook! So, so many more important things in life than "moving up" in the workplace! Good for you!!

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    1. Thank you, Sandra! I appreciate you reading. Have a wonderful day.

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  2. I really love this! I thought I could have it all before my first daughter was born and realized that being a good mom was really more important. Thanks for sharing!

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    1. Thank you! I'm so happy this post resonated with you and yes - family first, always!!

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  3. Yes, yes, yes. I have learned this so much as my kiddos have come along. Great post.

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    1. Thanks, friend. I really appreciate you reading. :) Have a wonderful day!

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  4. I am so totally with you on this. I hate the Lean In mentality- definitely not for me. Family will always come first, no ifs, ands or buts. Really great post, as always :)

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  5. Great post! I often feel that sometimes we are our own worst enemies, whether one is a "stay at home mom" or "working mom". The labels and subsequent judgements are some of the most destructive things, yet we keep allowing it. I feel blessed to have my "work" outside the home as a teacher, having transitioned from the private sector, but I also know my greatest blessing is as a mother. Keep these posts coming!!!!!

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    1. Thank you! I also appreciate you reading. Have a wonderful week.

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  6. I love the honesty here- the demand after your C section is insane! But really, yes, most of us work and give for nothing, so why not choose balance?

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    1. Thanks, Bekah. Yeah, it was really crazy. When I think back to that moment now, I'm mortified at myself but live and learn. That's all we can do! I hope you're having a great week.

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  7. Well put I think, and I think it applies to working dads too. You come home you leave work behind you focus on the family. I hate the feeling like you have to do it all though, that one is a beast.

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    1. Yes, great point Courtney! So many times we do forget about the working dads as well. Thanks for reading, friend. Have a great week!

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  8. I think you have a wonderful and healthy outlook on life! Work should not consume you and take away from what you find most important in life! It's wonderful that you enjoy your job and at the same time are able to leave your work at work! Good for you!

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    1. Thank you, Amber and thanks for reading! Have a fabulous week.

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  9. I'm not a working mom, but as a working person balance is so hard for me. It's nice to have constant access to emails and such, but it also makes it really hard to have boundaries. This is a good reminder.

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    1. Thank you, Aubrey and thanks for reading. Have a fantastic week!

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  10. Yes, yes, yes! Fantastic points - when my daughter was born I tried doing it all. I ended up being miserable for the first year of her life. After some serious re-evaluation, I came to terms with 'not having it all', but in the end my family is my 'all' and that's okay with me.

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